I logged onto this blog without any excitement at all but nevertheless the final post has to be in.

Henderson Waves
Pretty awesome place I would say. I spent a large bulk of my time on reflection at this place just before the year ended.
Staring into the sky, I was just trying as best as I could to recall the happenings of 2008.
The smiles and tears in 2008 have proven the road to be a bumpy ride.
Something which hit me the most was to how God has put people in my life and how some have left.

Dad
I remembered sharing at the camp after a praise and worship session as I felt His love just giving me perfect rest at the moment.
I was so compelled to let everyone know the greatness of His love and mercy. 
It's been 7 years since I have mouthed the words "dad" "daddy" "hey pa" to my father who passed on.
For the past years, the only person I have called "dad" would have to be Christ
Words cannot describe how I miss my natural father and how much I love my Heavenly Father.
Whoever is reading this post, I pray that love of the heavenly Father just pours down His liquid love onto you and thru Him, you will love your father and show him care and concern that can only come from the deepest, most mysterious part of your being.

Mom
Selfless giving. You give what you can't. I love you, Mom =)

Siblings
The people I see and share my joy and sadness with. I love you, Geri and Gerald =)

Division
Next thing that came to my mind, the division that I have taken over. When I see the next generation of speedlight, I couldn't help but look back at my secondary school days when I was just a youngling in speedlight. How the older ones would lead us by the hand through that phase.
I would love to write about my frustrations but on second thought, I shan't.
It is my conviction from God that I will not shortchange this division that I'm taking. Once again, I can't help but feel inadequately equipped for the task. But just by hearing from the kids.. it pushes me on. The leaders that are in my divison are simply awesome but like all everyone else they need encouragement, they need a hug and they need people to pray for them.
"Lord by Your hand of grace, this division needs Your guidance and conviction. Help us learn what is like to love You just as You have shown us in You sending Your Son, Jesus to die for our sins. Knowing very well, we are not able to face the storms that are before us."

People
God has brought certain people closer to me this year and I really thank Him for these people. Their words and actions of encouragement has brought brothers and sisters in Christ to a whole new level.

Ip Man(eep mun)
5 Stars! Probably the best movie of 2008. A memorable quote from the main actor when he was poked fun at, for being scared of his wife when she threw a tantrum and disliking the main's love for fighting. Go watch to find out =)

Long posts have never been my forte, the heavy rattling of my keyboard keys just prolongs the physical, mental and emotional pain that I'm experiencing. And all of it, I give it up in prayer.
Thus I shall end here.
Thank you for reading, probably the last post in shreggy's journal. I won't know when I'll start blogging again.
Perhaps one day, I will revisit the memories of this blog. Memories that brought tears of joy and sadness alike.
Do drop a comment if you're reading about my life, I will drop you a msg if I start a new blog.
Ciao.


The long, windy and bumpy road of 2009 begins here..

Current Mood: thankful

Who can play this, let me know =)

Current Mood: calm

Just when you realise you can't do it, the Lord reassures you that His unmerited favour is upon you.
Haven't you realised that you can't do it alone already?
Haven't you realised that the ship you're steering has gone out of control?
Haven't you realised its time to head into the hull and seek the Lord's help?

A Blessed Christmas to all =)

His strength is perfect when mine is gone..
Burning away the dross,
Praying that when it begins
Let it be new,
Let me be used for Your sake,
Bringing glory to Your name,
I can live knowing that You
Reside in my heart
Knowing that You tore the veil
And saying that it is done
I can face tomorrow.

A blessed birthday to You, dear friend.

Jesus

Current Mood: happy

Well definitely something to remember, the run was gruelling!
I made this silly clumsy mistake of injuring my ankle at the 300m mark,
Yes you are not reading this wrongly! 300m Mark!
41km to go boy..

Accompanied by kenny,vin and da
these guys are really great motivators! hahaha!
The price you pay for insufficient training eh..
IT FELT LIKE FOREVER B4 IT ENDED!

 

Once in a lifetime thing, came back wif multiple injuries
But most importantly, it is done!!

Maybe only 21km in future..

Current Mood: cheerful

its 2.30am, and vin chia msned me wif an encouragement. haha boy i needed that.
well everyone jus has their own struggles eh. and mine streches all the way till nxt may.
everything begins with..

Fear
then to..
Worry
then to..
Anxiety
then to..
Depression

I remembered preparing tis lesson for enaspi cell when doug was away.
its good that this lesson came in handy whenever the feeling is horrible eh.
time to press on in this race, and know that He is God.
He is in control of everything,
just gotta do what is right..
yeah..
what is right.

November 10.
This year is already coming to an end,
I have begun to reflect on 2008.
Accomplishments..
Failures..
Trying moments..
Perserverance..

It's probably true that when we look back at certain events and suddenly realise how silly we were,
it is exactly at that point that we know we have matured.
But how many have the resolve to avoid falling into the same hole again?

A question hit me just as I was about to click save.
What kind of a friend have i been to the people around me?
Needs more thought on that i guess.

...

Back from a short Genting trip,
and i realised i haven't sat in a roller coaster before  (yes lol all u wan)
been about 13 yrs since i've been there eh.

Koon.
 

Current Mood: sleepy

she said she jus quarrelled with her ex.
she told me her boyfriend was a non-christian.
he told me his kid wasn't behaving according to expectations.
she has her expectations of me so high.

ahh.. its 1.23am and i really have no idea what to blog. perhaps jus feelin down and out.
i encourage you all..
but who's gonna push me?

Maybe i'm just hiding as she says.
Or maybe I have done alot.
.. I'm just covered in coal right now.

ahh.. i so wanna graduate like now.
what's a big brother supposed to do?
she says i have alot on my plate,
i don't think so, i think there are others who are worse off
and these ppl are in my prayer always.

why can't they understand that?
am i labouring in vain?
heh..

mada mada dane.
(no one will understand this post)

Current Mood: drained

Negativity everywhere,
I must self-motivate,
Yes I must,
I feel excited that I'm gonna push myself,
And my God will guide my steps,
Yes He will,

Let's go.

Current Mood: cheerful

Decided to take a break from studying as I'll be having a test in 3 hrs time.. Oh wow.. august 21st was the last entry.. Inactivity for a long time.
Guess blogging prob lost its flavour.. Gonna be pretty busy from now on, with work, studies and church on the list.
of which, is gonna last?

For those who don't know, I'll have joined Manulife as an adviser aka insurance.
Well, I have to say I'm a believer in insurance because of the fact that when my dad passed on. He wasn't adequately insured, tts why we had a tough time.. But thanks be to Jehovah Jireh who brought us through it all.

For those who don't know, I'll be helping out at Purity Camp 08. Visit http://purity08.wordpress.com

For those who don't know, tuition will be officially ending in 2 days time when PSLE ends.
Need some new assignments soon haha!

For those who don't know, officially taken over Doug as DL. Certain challenges lie ahead...

Oh well back to studying and hopefully blog more when the interest sets in =)

LIVEJOURNAL pls don't hang on me.

Current Mood: okay

Livejournal is not loading!!! I've been trying to load this page since last week, almost gave up on blogging seriously. 
I've been having this "alot of stuff to blog" feeling but yet when its loaded, I'm at a lost for words.

Anyway a big event that took place recently would be my grandma's 88th birthday! Gosh 88! She's still as fit as ever, walking to the market and carrying back a big bag of groceries. Proud of her haha!


Happy 88th Birthday to Grandma!



We got her a photoframe with gerald and me in it since she always misses us =)

It broke my heart when she said in mandarin, 
"ah ma xiang ni men liang ge, ni men yao lai ah ma jia duo yi dian. ah ma zhu dong xi gei ni men chi.."
(Grandma misses both of you, visit me more often and I will cook your favourite dishes)

Not to mention a particular scene in 'Money No Enough 2', where the 3 brothers found it a chore to take care of their senile mother. I remember laughing when 'mother' asked ah hui the first couple of times whether he had eaten, the subsequent times I stopped laughing. It was funny but it is real. One day our parents will grow old and we are to take care of them when they are down and out. I wonder how many of us have actually put that into consideration. Sad to say, most of the time I have seen children go on and on about what they can get from their parents but not what they can give to them. I guess I'm guilty of that too.

Uber saddening to see the scene where they put her near the laundry area to sleep. 

Current Mood: calm

DEFORESTATION AT MY AREA
which is good, when it rains hopefully wun haf so many beetles. I think i have killed nearly 20 so far =X



Boy was it a drag to go to school today.. felt so lost! I missed out on orientation camp due to work, thus i felt so alien when i saw the bunch of them being so 'ah ka chiu ji' aka. well-acquainted with each other.

ok. so today was soci class.. twas pretty exciting since its my 'FIRST' time taking such a mod but was quickly bored to the max coz my lecturer was explaining why we have to study soci 3x! young guy with a 'chiong hei' style.. gosh.

He explained that in the last hour, there would be some sort of a mini tutorial presentation which you had to be in groups. the horror man. ALMOST everyone were sitting in GROUPS alrdy la.. I was like the loner hogging 4 seats of a single table =) 1 for my bag.. 1 for my water bottle, 1 as arm rest.. fully utilised *chuckles* 

Being the 'introvert' tt i am (ehehe), i decided to SOCIALISE abit. 

I went with 
"Hi, my name is Greg, can i join your tutorial group?"
Reply: "Geerr wat?!
me: (still smiling) "GREY GEG ORY, ermm jus call me greg"
Apparently a name like greg is pretty easy to remember i guess, beats having it pronounced as 'georgey' anyway.

taaadaaa 5 new frens made~
I felt young, i felt excited to do TUTORIALS..
the young part was shortlived when i found out the whole grp was frm JC(namely CJC, SRJC, TPJC)
then it hit me that I'm 23 (whatever laugh all you want)
Officially declared as the uncle in that group. 

I'm in awe, i used to think that SIM students will be CONVERSING in chinese, but no, most of them carry themselves v well. Impressive.
Guess i can scrap chinese.

Was chatting with the guys in the group about army which is the norm and found out that both were gd frens and both were PES C!
Both rambled on about how crappy army is and how they managed to keng throughout bla bla, as if they were pinky and the brain, their teamwork was awesome i tellya, twas like watching a comedy clip or something.

so they decided to stop and ask where i was frm, what unit.. usual army stuff
they went "oh.."(lowpitch) when i told them my appt. 
machiam became their enemy or something..

The lecturer suggested essential that we had to read up and stuff, the books can be gotten by buying or borrowing. ok well i wasn't keen on buying it so i decided to drop by the library.. 

Is it just the initial hype of studying in me or what? seems no one else went to borrow.. weird class.

THE BOOK IS SUPER THICK, but i was ok wif lugging it back since it portrayed a student's identity(hopefully not lecturer).

Met cherry poop on the way to the bus stop, she's quite psycho la, it was like drizzling and she squealed machiam thunderstorm. gila.


More to come I guess..
..

Sometimes I'm so angry!
Sometimes I feel normal
Sometimes its excruciating
Sometimes it feels as if someone stuck his hand thru your chest.
Argh! Just awhile more I guess..

Current Mood: bouncy